Yep, I need one. Its not that I WANT a job its that I NEED a job.

I don't have one and I have bills to pay. If I don't pay the bills I lose what I'm paying for.

Subway didn't work out, Pizza hut isn't hiring, and There is nothing in town.

My car is broken down and I need a job.... Please, if you know someplace that is hiring that isn't too far away from me, please help...

Life is going to continue to kick me in the face with a size 13 steel toed boot that just so happens to have dog crap on the bottom. Every day something new comes up and just beats me till I'm bleeding on the ground, my wounds getting filled with mud and muck.

So whats the point anymore? Why can't I just disappear off the face of the earth? From what I can tell the only ones that would be truly affected would be my parents, Dalton, Kitty, and Nick.

As for the rest of you guys reading this, you've gone so far without talking to me hardly at all, so whats the rest of you life really mean?

I know one of you even stated that you'd give your life to protect me. Yeah freaking right. If that was true you would have called or emailed me by now.

And if you are asking if this is you or not then that means your not. The person that that is intended for knows without a doubt who that was for.

But whatever. Don't try saying talk to a shrink. Like that will freaking help. I'm not depressed for no reason. I have reasons. More reasons than I can even count on both hands. I have physical problems that aren't going to get fixed by just talking to a freaking shrink.

And hey, just cause I'm in the mood, why don't you ask me what my beef is about you. I have some on most anyone. Some I don't cause I don't hang out with you all that much. But if you wanna know what bothers me most about you then just ask. I'll be happy to oblige.

Well this is enough of my sob story. Have a happy thanksgiving and what not.

ha ha ha haha ha ...

So yeah. I have the worst luck in world or someone has it out for me.

I lost my job for some stupid reason that they can't even prove. They didn't schedule me for two weeks and didn't even call to tell me why. So screw them.

I've been printing out resumes out the wazoo. Handed a few in already. Subway in town already set up an interview with me. So thats sweet.

I'm going to talk to the Pizza Hut I used to work at and see if they wanna hire me again.

Other than that... hmmm.... I dunno really.

Spent some time with Dalton, working out what to do with Thanksgiving.

I never realized how much I loved having him hold me while I slept until he wasn't there to do it XP

Oh and in order to get my money from the dog bite thing I have to wait till March to talk to a plastic sergun and see what he says about the scar being permanent or not. I hope he says yes cause that means more money for me that I can spend on the car XP

[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[] Your parents are still married.
[] You have more than 2 best friends.
[] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.

T 0 T A L: 3

[x] You dress how you want to.
[] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/laptop in your room.
[] You have never been beaten up.
[] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[] Your room is big enough for you.
[] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.

T 0 T A L: 7

[] You don't have a myspace.
[x] Your parents let you have a myspace.
[] You get allowance.
[x] You collect something normal.
[x] You look forward to going to school/college.
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school/college.

T 0 T A L: 12

[x] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[] You are happy with your appearance.
[] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.

T 0 T A L: 15

[] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[] You are happy with your life.
[] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[x] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.
[] You don't have any enemies.
[x] You are a generally nice person.

T O T A L: 20

So read my last journal. Alright read it? A week after that monday, my car died. 32.50 worth of gas all over rt 26 DX
Pissed
At 12:30 that night cops came and said we gotta move it now cause its not off the road far enough
Bite me
*sigh* there's more to it but I'm lazy.

Then this past sat, I kicked dalton out until he has a job and a license. We are still together so don't get any ideas.

Oh and even better, my boss hired 4 new people and decided to take MY HOURS to train them. Meaning, out of the 4 days that I am not there at all she picks the 3 days that I am there and cuts them down. So yay for not being about to pay bills AT ALL. I'm seeing if I can get transfered to the Casey's in town. I'll apply at Begg's and the factory and Shell, and the Am Fam.... *sigh*

Right now I'm waiting for this weeks tragedy. Whats going to happen this week I wonder? Will I be pummeled to death by some raging crazy person? Hit by another car? Fired? Another family member die? My dog or cat die? I wonder....

I seriously am waiting for this weeks tragedy cuz thats how my life is turning out lately.

Yesterday was nice though, I rode my bike in the sun shiney day. It was fun. Except for the sweating. Yeah I'm over weight. Don't ask me how it happened but I was the small but beastly 120lbs and now I'm 160lbs T_T I'm freaking hideous. Nick, yes I am, don't even say I'm not. I look pregnant DX My arms are all flabby and my legs jiggle.... I need to loose weight. But I'm too poor for pills and too upset for exercising by myself.

eh.... I never did get those bipolar meds. I have to call Sinnissippi and make an appointment to talk to them to get REDIAGNOSED cause my doc won't treat it.

I'm gonna imagine a gun to my head *sigh*